Trivial Matters

I realized earlier that it has been awhile since I last meditated. Many, many years ago, meditation was a normal routine for me. I used to be more spiritual then, and this was one way of expressing/accessing that.

It’s hard to meditate when the space you occupy is not your own. When I moved back out here, I moved in with two other people, and I never felt “at home” there. During the Great Upheaval, I found temporary accommodations which are just as bad.

I’m hoping that next weekend I’ll be able to go look for an apartment in Corvallis and be moved by the end of the year. Until then, I’m not sure I can find the space in which to meditate again. Which is sad because I think that is what I really need to be doing right now.

Life, as it tends to do, has sped up and passed me by. Events have unfolded outside of my control. And while it is not as dire as I make it sound, I do like having control over my life. Control only comes with concentration, and concentration (at least for me) comes from meditation.

In the meantime, I’ll continue to do my best and hope that it works out in the end.